Wednesday, October 2, 2013


At my core, I'm a selfish person.  And not just a person with a tendency to be self-centered, but a truly selfish person.  No, I don't want to give you any of my time, my money, or my things.  They're mine.

I also have no desire to do anything that I don't want to do.  Give you a ride to the airport?  Eh, that's 30 miles away.  Pick up something for you at the store?  No, I'd rather just go home.  Listen to you on the phone when you're really upset and crying?  I'm on the verge of a panic attack.

But the ONE thing that God has called me to do is to love Him and thereby love others.  To put others before myself.

"If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing."
1 Corinthians 13:1-2

I heard this song by Steven Curtis Chapman on the radio a few weeks ago, and I immediately loved it.  It's got a great groove and the guitar riffs are awesome.  I can dance in the car to this song, which is a key for me.  But as I listened to the words, I knew that God was speaking to me.

Love, take these words that I'm speaking
Love, take these thoughts that I'm thinking
Love, take me over
Love, fill up all of my space and
Love, stand right here in my place
Love, hear this prayer that I'm praying
Love, take me over

Let Your never-ending, never-failing, all-consuming love
Take over me

So I am praying, Father, help my heart believe
That right now You're singing over me
And fill me up with Your love

I know that I need to be more loving and more giving.  But I also know that in my own strength it will never happen.  So I am praying that God's never-ending, never-failing, all-consuming love (which is so far unlike mine) will take me over and that it will change me and make me more of the woman He has called me to be.